Is Addiction Your Fault?
191.7 lbs 36 inches 14 hours fasted...
New Year's weekend approaches as I once again face my alcohol addiction. Part of me is saying, "It should be okay to get fucked up once a year." However, I know better. I know that other special occasions, holidays, and social gatherings will come up, over and over and once again I will rationalize it with, "It's a special occasion". I know deep down that I am just rationalizing my reward seeking behavior brought on by a lack of Dopamine. The fact that the holidays have me down, that things are a bit stressful right now, and memories of past relationships which seem to creep up on me, all justifications to increase pleasure in the moment. I will try and remain alcohol free new years, however I cannot guarantee it. I will do the best I can, which is all we can do.
This video addresses the issue in more detail on how I deal with these thoughts, my knowledge of the biochemistry behind it and what to do about it. This is still a work in progress for me, however I think I am doing much better now than I used to and I owe it all to the health, lifestyle and research I have done. Plus, I have a growing amount of accountability partners as youtube approaches 5000 subscribers. Will just have to see how it goes. Who knows, perhaps I will find a happy more content fulfilling life without alcohol added to it.
In other news, I have not gained or lost any more weight with normal keto eating. I have leveled off with a net loss of 2lbs from the fat fast. Will be interesting to see how the next fat fast goes and if it will level off at the same weight or will it yield a 2 lb drop in plateau each time... What happens if you eat normal 3 weeks out of the month with a 7 day fat fast once a month? A question I am considering finding out the answer to. Also want to know what happens when you transition to ADF. Do we keep more of the lbs lost during a fat fast gone? As always my self experiment has led to more experiments to come.
To those of you who contributed in December I want to say thank you again. Channel is continuing to grow and you all made it possible. I hope you have a great 2018 and that we all turn things around, make progress, and heal the damage we have done to ourselves throughout our lives. I cannot think of better people to be on this journey with.